this was last saturday.

the day i officially hang out with them since 4 years ago. my ex-band members.

it was sucha failure lah. they talk to each other in their own world, i was there just looking at them.

partially, i don't know what to do.

partially, i wanna run away. cauz the memories are starting to come back.

and the whole time during the barbecue and as i walk away from them, one word is stuck in my head.

'pity'

and i just stayed put till i ended my curfew time. truthfully, i wanted to stay till we pack up and say our goodbye's.

newsflash: boyfriend just received his NS letter today.

this is it.

i'll make the most of it.

while we have the time.

ilyanti nabilah

i tried to be someone else

but nothing seems to change

i know now

this is who i really am inside