The Cranberries - Zombie

just because.

hello! its been a week since new year. sorry i haven't been pouring my heart content.

but i've been real busy. miss me so? :D

its not that i neglected to blogging. but somehow, in that period, work has taken its toll on me. and i stopped enjoying. and then i was sick for a week. i made up various reasons and ignoring my own self.

but don't worry. i'm slowly healing.

oh. i finally went on a holiday with colleagues with my Dec bonus!

oh yes! i did enjoyed myself. it just felt so good to just get out from what-nots.

anyway, to fill you in, i've started school.

yes, i know. its been 5 years since N's. not to mention that i spend a dime on studies. really, really, really expensive education. but its all for good right? i had my second day of class today.the teachers. they knew we came back for studies with reasons. and they had this mindset that every students should know what are our goals is. and they have so much passion for teaching their subjects.

4 years ago and now. i voiced out more than i ever did in the past. i guess 'mute' is not my nickname anymore. thank you.

i've started to read more books. heaps of books. all kinds of books.

but i find it so hard to finish reading non-fictions. i find myself pausing after a paragraph or so to just paint the picture in my head and what it really feels like to be in their shoes. turbulence. one word to describe those kind of books. the author/subject undergo turbulence.

my current project.

yes. i admit. i'm not great with being religious. like, religiously go to the gym. religiously being faithful to my religion. oh, but i am trying. like how hard i tried to restrain myself from spending so much on food and to restrict myself from the sweet and the oily indulgence.

and i am in the midst of changing my job.

yes. i am aware that i've been too comfortable working for that place for 4++ years. i understand that this change will not be an easy task. especially when you get paid lower than your current salary. but i need to. i really need to.

well. thats it. i think i've said enough.

till then. goodbye.

ilyanti nabilah

i can never leave that past behind

i can see no way. i can see no way

it's always darkest before the dawn